Can a Fat Girl on the inside become a Skinny Girl on the outside?
No one said this was going to be easy...
Friday, August 5, 2011
That’s a really big word.I know I haven’t written on here in a while, and frankly it’s because I haven’t been able to get any of the weight off.In fact, I piled even more on.This was so discouraging and I just didn’t know what to do.I had no energy, I didn’t even want to (and didn’t) get out of bed for days.This was very hard for me, because I wanted to make a change, but I didn’t feel that I could with my body and my mind behaving the way it was.I was also grappling with some really intense feelings of depression.The kind where you can’t get up, and everyday you want to just close your eyes and never wake up.It was a very dark time for me and I worried what would happen if I couldn’t figure out why I was feeling this way.
Thankfully I have an amazing doctor.I went and spoke with her about my feelings of depression and lethargy.She had me go through some blood test and we found the cause of my weight gain, mood and lack of energy.An extreme Vitamin D deficiency was causing pseudohypothyroidism.This means that I was having all of the same symptoms of someone that is suffering from thyroid problems, but when they tested my thyroid it was always fine.Finally she thought to test my vitamin D.I was put on 50,000 IU a week to get the levels up and I can’t tell you what a change it has made in my life.I have a lot more energy now, and I finally feel like I can put in the effort to loose weight and get back to the healthy person I was a year ago.I still need to loose A LOT of weight to get there, but I finally feel that it isn’t an insurmountable goal.
So I’m jumping in with both feet.I’m actually excited to diet again…weird right?I am also have a great workout buddy in Melissa from ‘They Call Me Hypo’.She has had to change her life around due to health issues as well and, to be frank, I can’t complain about diet when I look at what she has to do!I do, however plan to steal lots of recipes from her!I am trying to get her to kick my ass on walks, because we both have weight to loose and motivation to do it. Some days come with more motivation than others.
So today I start out again, and even with everything that’s going on, my new job, moving, living by myself…I am ready to make the healthy change in my life.It’s good that I finally feel like a living, breathing human being again!I am looking forward to enjoying the rest of my summer and getting svelte by Christmas!