So I feel like I should explain to my readers where I've been for the last nine months. Here's what happened. I bought a house! Meet Esteban, my anthropomorphized house.
I closed on the house in the middle of June and immediately my computer broke. So I was without a computer until November, because I had used all of my savings to buy a house! So all of that time I couldn't post a new blog because I won't use my work time to do it, because my work computer won't let me. Then with the holidays things got really busy, and I had been so out of practice with this whole blog thing that I didn't get around to posting until my birthday in January. However, here are the highlights from the time that you missed, and I promise to be better at keeping regular updates going:
I have been in counseling since March and have made some really good progress. I have also gone back on my anti-depressants since having a really bad bout of depression in Sept/Oct. I feel really good now that I am working with a team to get my biochemistry and my brain in the right places.
Because of these psychological changes I have lost 25lbs! I wish I could say that I was truly trying, but in reality I got into a better space mentally and wasn't compensating with food or eating emotionally anymore. It's also amazing how once you get your biochemistry under control the cravings completely change. I want to eat better and I have the energy to get out and get moving. I think that anyone struggling with weight issues should go to therapy. It is not a sign of weakness. It can really help you talk through your internal struggles and get to the root of why you eat the way you do, and what emotional ties you have to food.
Did I mention I bought a HOUSE?!?! It has been an experience to say the least. Utility bills, home improvement, electrical issues, decorating. There has been a lot of work that has gone into this place for me already, and still quite a bit I want to do to get it where I want it to be. I'm looking forward to the weather getting warmer so that I can get some work done in the yard and get ready for summer BBQ season. It's really nice to have a space all your own that you can do whatever you want with. Want to paint that wall read? DO IT! Need to get everything in your house sealed up so your heating bill isn't OUTRAGEOUS? Yeah, getting there!
Those are the biggest things happening with me. I decided that I'm going to start doing the Weight Watchers program again. It has worked for me before and I feel like I'm in a really good place and can make a huge difference in my life right now. It's time to seize the moment! I worked hard to get my mind where it needs to be and now it's my bodies turn!